ugh... 5 am

so it's like this: i was going to read from my book last night at around 9 or 10, i don't actually remember. i do remember laying in bed and having the thought 'gee, this is kinda cozy'.... then midnight. i had fallen asleep only to wake up at my normal bed time. ok, so i wasn't going to go out last night (it's a week night and i've become terribly boring in my old age)or even do anything interesting but it still feels like i wasted yesterday- like somehow those two hours were the ones that i was going to start writing a book... well guess what? i'm writing right now and it ain't literature and i can't sell it, so boo to that idea. nope, my problem was that i knew this was going to happen as i went back to sleep at midnight... awake at 5 in the morning with nothing to do. not that i had anything to do last night, but being awake and not writing my book last night seemed like a better use of my time than being awake not writing my book right now... so i guess i'll use this time to complain about random stuff:
liiikkke.... hmmm, well how about my laptop? i guess a problem with the processor on my model gets very hot and transfers the heat to the case which melts the glue that holds the rubber stoppers on the bottom of my computer. so now it feels like i'm typing on something that is ice skating.
i'm starting to get the feeling that a TEFL certificate is area specific- i can't imagine that it would be, as it requires no knowledge of a second language, but.... as i was looking up various TEFL camps yesterday, they kept saying once you take this camp you'll be able to teach in madrid or barcelona, or once you take this camp you'll be able to teach in phuket or anywhere else in thailand. shit, i don't even know if i want to spend another year doing this sort of thing... then again getting the TEFL is exactly the sort of thing that would get my a nice cushy job back in the west. i guess i could deal with 2000 euros and all the italian women i could ever want...or spanish women... oh! or german women (i like the beer frau outfit, it's sexy to have a busty girl bring you lots of beer(in a meta sort of way, german girls, take no offence that i think my imaginary readers need to be told how german girls could be hot, but i assume they just get that italian and spanish woman are hot))
i am not using my time to email someone at ku to let them know i want to give them MORE money so i can take some independent study classes while i'm here so i can apply for Teach Across America when i get back to the states and actually have a chance of getting accepted. 18,000 people applied last year and only 3,000 weere accepted, and lets face it, i kinda joked my way through college. my only solace comes from the idea that most of these applicants just have to be english majors who realized (just as i have) that nobody wants to give you a job just because you have an opinion on moby dick and the dubliners. i'll bet a fair number of the 18,000 were philosophy majors as well. i mean i knew i was committing career suicide when i switched from chemistry to creative writing, but still...
i got more but then i wouldn't have anything to write about later...
sucka!